Proof *love*

I wanna to tell you something..

Maybe you'll tell me i'm a weirdo because i don't have love or smile..

But tell you what..

I'm gonna proof it that love CAN destroyed our life..

Here is some song that i knew and it was about love..

"It’s all lies. All lies

Your love for me was all lies

You've hurt me so

You left me crying"

..FT Island-After love..

Don’t ever love

Heartbreak will surely come

It hurts to even breathe

I thought that this would only hurt

as much as I love

But I was wrong

It hurts a thousand times more

..FT Island-Don't love..

U make me cry (You)

The reason I live on

Please don’t leave me

Just tell me why (why)

Oh wipe my tears tell me I’m so crazy (yeah)

Scream out call out (call out) Loudly yell out call out (call out)

This is not the end It hurts so much ah ee yah

Surge call out (call out) Please don’t throw me away baby

..MBLAQ-Cry..

I really wanted to forget you

No matter how hard I tried,

No matter how hard I tried you were still inside of me

..Rain-How to avoid the sun..

I can't get myself to say that I still can't sleep at night because of her

With a forced smile I encouraged him and sent him away OH GIRL

..Beast-Take care of my girlfriend (say no)..

Don’t go. Don’t leave me. No matter how many times I think about it,

It will be hard to forget you. I don’t think I can forget you

..Beast-Breathe..

I became used to only looking at you

Lingering around you, I feel like a beggar

I want to let go of everything now, and thats suffocating

And I don't know what to do

..Infinite-Before the dawn..

The coldhearted man is crying

At our parting, even she’s crying

The time within tears cut apart

From the faded memory-window fragments

I’ll tie them together once again

To tie, to tie

..The Trax-Let you go (cold-hearted man)..

Because it was the love you choose..

Even the pain was happiness..

If you look back at least once..

Im happy just for that..

Until the day you meet..

The person to protect you instead of me..

For a while I will stay next to you..

Because it is a happy love just looking at you..

..Jung yong hwa-I'm a fool..

Baby, don’t take his hand when he comes to you

Coz you should be my lady

I’ve been waiting for you for so long

Look at me now

..Taeyang-Wedding dress..

And there's many more songs about how hurting love is..

HA~ DON'T TRUST LOVE..

Told ya~

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About my name, me..

Hyemi..
Hmm..
Hyemi is not my real name..

If you watching "dream high" (korean drama), you'll know hyemi..

Hyemi is a girl who's so aggressive and so annoying but still, there's two guys who love her just the way she are..
I want to be like her..
She's  tough and cute..

I wanna be like her..
Tough, arrogant, doesn't care about world at all..

If you asking what i wanna be,
I wanna be a musician, or at least somebody who important in music..

I learn guitar and piano..
Guitar electric and acoustic..
Piano and keyboard..

I wanna learn violin tough..
But still, my interest and the thing that i love is playing guitar..
Especially electrical one..

I have two guitar electric..

There's Cort X-6 and Ibanez (I don't know the serial)
And i have an acoustic guitar..
Yamaha..

I wanna be something in music..

Besides that, i'm good at rap and dance..
But still, can't sing-_-"

My friends said that my sounds isn't bad..
But what i think that my voice is more worst than a duck=_=

Still i wanna be a musician and have a great time w/ world

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About a girl's life w/ no love *part 2*

Monday, 28th February 2011.. *rainy*

Today i'm started to go to school again..
Even tough, the "school" is one of the place that make me down all the time,
but it's fine for me, since it's the new "me"..

It's cold in here tough..
Even now i'm using a jacket, but it is cold..

I thought that "they" wont bother me because i like this now..
They? Yes! They!

They, everybody in class who used to make me laugh..
They, everyone who used to cheer me up..
They, the one who make me can't forget my past...

I know i sounds like a pity little girl who needs to cheer up..
But noo noo...
I don't need to cheer..

I just want to share all that i have to you..

Still tough, i have a smile, but fake one..
Why would i smile now?

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About a girl's life w/ no love *part 1*

Hi~
I'm hyemi..
Not a Korean, and it's not important to tell you about from where i am..

I'm sorry, it's not that i'm trying to mad at you..
It's just, this is me..
A 14 years old girl but can't smile like used to..

Why?

It's because of past, it's because of memories..
That's why i hate memories..
There's nothing good that came up from memories..

And oh there's one thing..
I hate love..
Maybe i don't hate it, but i didn't believe at love..
For me, love is big b***s*** ..

Don't you know, i was trying to kill myself..
By burned myself in a fire from a huge campfire..
Or by stabbing my veins w/ fork (it's ridiculous-,-)
Or by many other things that i can't count..

Why would i suicide?

It's because memories!
I can't take the memories~
So i'm taking suicide by an option for me..

But after my parents bought me another guitar *i'm a guitarist*, i realized that i still have a dream to reach..
I want to be a musician..
I want  to be something..

Still i was thinking suicide is the best for me, to make me forget about my past..
To make me forget about them who hurt me..

But..

Now i stand up..
Have a new life..

I was love to laughed all time and never ever cry...
But now?

I'm thinking there's no love at all..
Ha~
Yes!! I'll stand up and there's no love in me..
If there's no love, there's wont be any pain in me..
If there's no pain in me, i'll stand up until the end of my life~

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Testing *me*

Hi everybody, this is hyemi..
I know i sounds like a Korean but no.. Oh my, i hope i was korean..
No no, i'm hyemi..

Hahaha~ Maybe you'll find that i'm laughing here..
But in the real life, oh no noo..
Believe it or not, there's nothing that i can laughed about..

Besides i don't believe at "true love"..
I don't believe at any "love" myself..
Cuz for me, there's no such thing as love..

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