About a girl's life w/ no love *part 1*

Hi~
I'm hyemi..
Not a Korean, and it's not important to tell you about from where i am..

I'm sorry, it's not that i'm trying to mad at you..
It's just, this is me..
A 14 years old girl but can't smile like used to..

Why?

It's because of past, it's because of memories..
That's why i hate memories..
There's nothing good that came up from memories..

And oh there's one thing..
I hate love..
Maybe i don't hate it, but i didn't believe at love..
For me, love is big b***s*** ..

Don't you know, i was trying to kill myself..
By burned myself in a fire from a huge campfire..
Or by stabbing my veins w/ fork (it's ridiculous-,-)
Or by many other things that i can't count..

Why would i suicide?

It's because memories!
I can't take the memories~
So i'm taking suicide by an option for me..

But after my parents bought me another guitar *i'm a guitarist*, i realized that i still have a dream to reach..
I want to be a musician..
I want  to be something..

Still i was thinking suicide is the best for me, to make me forget about my past..
To make me forget about them who hurt me..

But..

Now i stand up..
Have a new life..

I was love to laughed all time and never ever cry...
But now?

I'm thinking there's no love at all..
Ha~
Yes!! I'll stand up and there's no love in me..
If there's no love, there's wont be any pain in me..
If there's no pain in me, i'll stand up until the end of my life~

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