About a girl's life w/ no love *part 5*

Friday,  7th july 2011.. *sunny*


Well, i'd just checked this blog and whoa i'd never EVER thought that there would be somebody, ehem.. i mean.. 300 pageviewers! O.o 


Anyway, i'm so happy that you all would read this story.. Thank you soo much! ^^


Whoops~ Did i just smile? 
Hehe, i am kind, right?


Anywaay~ 


Today.. 
Hmm.. 
"Gosh how could life be so that hard?"


Sometimes, that line just popped into your mind, isn't it?


Well, it is popping in my mind everytime-_-"


This lately, i've been watching 'Hana kimi'..
Well, it's a Japanese drama.. Don't you know?

Hmm, it's a story where there's a girl that comes into a boys school 'Osaka gakuen'..
That girl's name, Mizuki. She went there because of someone's named Sano.
Sano was a high-jumper but he's stopped cause of an accident.
Mizuki thinks this is all her fault then she want to make it up for him by supporting him and told him to do that sport again.. For once again, she want to make him smile~


And there's an episode where mizuki try to convince that there's nothing to stop someone by doing something that they love, even if you get an injuries..


In that episode, mizuki join a marathon and in the same time her foot was bleeding.. But in the end she almost finishing the marathon even though she had injured..


And that reminds me, we can't ran off! We can't ran away! We can't hide! And there's nothing would stop us!


If we fall away down and we think we can't get up.. Just simply ask this to yourself.. 
'How can i ended be like this?'
Trust me! 


You know?
If you'd read the previous post, you'll know that i had dream to become a great musician..
My dad has already prepared a studio for me and my mom wants to sent me to this music school that i can learn every weekend..


But..
I throw it all.. 
I've get into this school, a boarding school, a REALLY tough boarding school-,-


For what?
Chasing my other dreams~


There's someone said, 'You have to throw a dream to chase the other dreams'..


I Know i was stupid!
I regret this after.. 


But then again, i am stupid!
I never do anything right! 


Just let yourself flow by the wind.. 
And when you're ready to fly by your own wings, choosing your own path, then go! 
Don't EVER let someone wins for something that you've chasing! 


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About a girl's life w/ no love *part 4*

Saturday, 19th march 2011.. *sunny*

Hmm..
Nothing seemed interesting today because well, nothing that make me interested..
I'm bored and there's nothing that i can do about it..
Well..
It's just i missed this blog._.
LOL!

About a girl's life w/ no love *part 1*

Hi~
I'm hyemi..
Not a Korean, and it's not important to tell you about from where i am..

I'm sorry, it's not that i'm trying to mad at you..
It's just, this is me..
A 14 years old girl but can't smile like used to..

Why?

It's because of past, it's because of memories..
That's why i hate memories..
There's nothing good that came up from memories..

And oh there's one thing..
I hate love..
Maybe i don't hate it, but i didn't believe at love..
For me, love is big b***s*** ..

Don't you know, i was trying to kill myself..
By burned myself in a fire from a huge campfire..
Or by stabbing my veins w/ fork (it's ridiculous-,-)
Or by many other things that i can't count..

Why would i suicide?

It's because memories!
I can't take the memories~
So i'm taking suicide by an option for me..

But after my parents bought me another guitar *i'm a guitarist*, i realized that i still have a dream to reach..
I want to be a musician..
I want  to be something..

Still i was thinking suicide is the best for me, to make me forget about my past..
To make me forget about them who hurt me..

But..

Now i stand up..
Have a new life..

I was love to laughed all time and never ever cry...
But now?

I'm thinking there's no love at all..
Ha~
Yes!! I'll stand up and there's no love in me..
If there's no love, there's wont be any pain in me..
If there's no pain in me, i'll stand up until the end of my life~

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